Home

I love AND hate how some songs just take you back in time and remind you of things that you might not want to. Just a while back I was going through the billboard charts to try and catch up on new music when I came across ‘Home – Blake Shelton’. Though that was the first time I heard that specific version… it reminded me of the phase where I was stuck back home without K and I used to count down the days that we were going to be apart.

Even though I was ‘home’ and I had everyone else I cared about around me, things just didn’t feel right. I couldn’t wait to get to where K was, even if that meant leaving my bestest friends behind and going to where it was going to be just K, even if it meant having to face some harsh realities.

And strangely enough, now when I can not wait to get back home, the song really doesn’t stir up the anywhere near as many emotions. Maybe it’s because I am just scared of facing everything when I go back. I know that G is not going to be around for atleast a year; I know that C too might leave some time soon for her post-grad; there’s the part where I am dreading going back because I don’t know how things are going to be with K and me; then there is also the fact that I will have to live once again with my parents AND my brother (who btw I’m not really fond of).

All I know is, as of now home is so not where the heart is!!